What a day...

You know, by now I should be driving on the streets and probably taking my friends on a cruise through the town and have some fun. But, I'm stuck here in my room, typing this blog in order to satisfy myself for entertainment. Oh boy! Anyway, I went to the Department of Motor Vehicles to take a driver's license test. So far, you're suppose to miss six or fewer questions in order to pass the test. But, I missed ten actually. This is my first try of the test, and I only have two more tries in order to get my license. The only part I'm afraid of is getting behind the wheel and driving within the streets among experienced drivers. I feel a bit intimidated because I have this fear of getting into an accident, or I would do a mistake that could effect everyone on the road. I hate the feeling of everyone depending on you, and something I cannot overcome.

So I'm afraid of driving. Most teenagers would kill just to drive on the road. That's when you know, you got some big ass truck ramming you on the side. Here comes to the horrible post-traumatic syndrome. But that's just me, hopefully I would overcome this.

I received another check from my school. Hopefully, I could buy a kick-ass laptop, probably manufactured by Alienware. Just a laptop with hardware that could last me a long time, and still wouldn't be obsolete the following years. But, if I can't afford one, I can probably go cheaper and maybe be able to get the same thing but in a cheaper price.

Just three more days until I go back to school. Monday is the first day of school and work, so two events I'm anticipating. Hooray!

I miss my Antonio.

Hurricane[5]

Okay...something's up.

Okay...this is weird.

I have a friend who I don't want to disclose his name. I would just call him "John". John and I been friends since senior year of high school. So, our friendship hasn't lasted for long. I think it was months later after high school graduation that I came out to him. He's a great friend because he didn't care that I was gay, and we were still friends because of that. But, I'm having this sense of avoidance from him. It's a rare thing to see or talk to my him because he spends numerous hours just working. Working at my old job and then it just getting money just so he can buy a car for himself. But, me and my other friends have tried some way around to hang out with John. But, the plan seems to be pretty mediocre because it's kind of bad that we are hanging out at late hours and we wouldn't be doing much. Plus, John's work is at the promenade. I think everyone knows that the Santa Monica promenade is one boring place, but you got those street performers doing their daily skits.

It was that one moment that I've noticed avoidance. One time, I send him a comment on his MySpace profile. I've told him if me and him want to hang out at his house or somewhere. I've send him this comment when he was online at the time. I was waiting for a response. The next day has past and still no respond. But, when I came back to his profile, I've noticed my comment I've sent last night has been deleted. This impacted me alot. Deleting comments usually sends messages to people psychologically, but I knew for sure that something is up. Could he be homophobic? Is he just avoiding me because he thinks I might do something perverted? I think it's common among some men who have gay friends would be a little scared. He probably thinks I'm a changed man, already acting flamboyant (which I'm not, thank God!).

Well, whatever it is. I hope this doesn't ruin our friendship. I guess if he just doesn't understand who I am, then I guess we are not friends then and I don't want to jump to that conclusion.

Hurricane[5]

Late Night Posting

Hi Everyone!

I'm just refreshing myself with all this blog stuff. I realized that people these days are blogging about the news and stuff that other people would anticipate on. I haven't blogged in a long time, because of the limited time I have. Well, I'm still on my winter break, and I do have one more week to relax before I start my Spring semester at Cal State Long Beach. Wow, I realized I haven't update this blog in a while. Let me insight you on some stuff.

I am a gay man. Yes, I said it. I am a homosexual. I like guys, okay...nothing wrong with that except those bible worshipers. They will never get me in a bible study session.

Anyway, I do have a significant other. His name is Antonio Rodriguez, and he's the best. I love him so much, he's a great guy who is always insightful and always willing to help me out alot. I show him the deepest gratitude, and I usually tell him my inner secrets that I would never share to rest with everyone. He's someone I could relate to, because I don't have anyone else to talk about problems with my sexual orientation. The whole world is completely set upon a heterosexual viewpoint, and it's normal for a male and female to kiss in public and also is widely acceptive with parents. I however want to contradict that. I believe that by the time we have rights to marry and receive more legal rights, this whole taboo wouldn't be much of a taboo anyway.







This is my significant other by the way. Cute, isn't he?








So, it's horribly late here. The television is on, illuminating my entire room as my brother is sleeping peacefully on a pull-out mattress underneath my bed. God, that would be a perfect shot to take on my camera. Too bad my camera broke, the interface screen broke internally, so I can't see the preview when I take a shot from my camera. I do miss my camera, I miss taking random photos and always wonder which shot will go great on my MySpace page. I use Adobe Photoshop constantly, and I am also a big fan of it. I love editing them and making them look professional. I want to become a professional photographer, but I am not studying to become one. I am actually studying for Computer Science, but I figure photographer is somewhat my passion.

I actually have my own DeviantArt account. This website lets artists of different art criteria to share their expressive beauty and artistic vision to many different other artistic buffs. If you want to see, here's a link to my profile. I hope you enjoy my work... My DeviantArt page.

Thank you!

Hurricane[5]